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About bkpethtel

I am a small town girl who loves chocolate and laughing and making people smile. I love my family and my pets and most of all I love to write.

Mom always said….

Hind sight is 20/20.  Oh, the irony.  Things that you take for granted when you are younger become oh so clear after you have kids of your own.  Like your mother is always right…that’s something I now know to be true…I not only value her advice, but I actively seek it out for pretty much everything.  Twenty years ago you could talk until you were blue in the face and I still wouldn’t be convinced.  My preteen years were the hardest…the funny thing is I don’t remember much about them.  I remember being angry and annoyed a whole lot about nothing.  My mom could ask me if I wanted something for dinner and I would get mad and go to my room.  Why?  What was wrong with me?  I don’t know. I couldn’t tell you.  Hormones maybe?

She used to say that one of these days you will have kids of your own and you will see.  You’ll get paid back for everything you do.  She was right.  I love my kids.  They’re smart and they both have generous hearts.  But sometimes I feel like I preach all the time.  Wash your hands, brush your teeth, take your bath, wipe your feet…do you have homework?  do it.,  pick up your room, don’t fight with your sister, brush your hair, you can’t wear shorts to school…there’s snow outside.  You get my drift.

And I worry about everything.  Over the years those worries have changed just as my kids have changed.  When they were babies and couldn’t talk, I was concerned with their basic care and safety.  After they were more mobile I worried about their boo-boo’s and their happiness.  Now I worry about their peace of mind and their future.  Somewhere along the way I started to notice my brown hair was sprinkled with gray and developed a new appreciation for all of the gray hairs on my mothers head.  How many of those was I responsible for?    

My mom also says that you love your kids unconditionally, no matter what.  You never quit on them…always keep after them–it’s how they know you really care.  And even though they may see it as nagging now, when they get older they will realize it was because you cared.

She was right.

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Posted by on March 17, 2014 in Uncategorized

 

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Hmmm….

I’ve been wondering why I Iaugh when I’m happy, but sometimes when I laugh…I cry.  And sometimes when I’m sad, I cry, but when I’m  overwhelmingly happy…I cry, too.

I wonder if the wires in my brain are possibly crossed.  People probably think I’m an emotional train wreck.  All in a day’s work I guess.

 

 

 
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Posted by on January 23, 2014 in Uncategorized

 

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What’s love really all about…

I was a late bloomer.  My hormones didn’t kick in the same time as every one else’s.  When girls and boys were “dating”, I was at home baking brownies and playing cards with my family.  I was okay with that.  It all seemed very dramatic and complicated.  I didn’t even have my first kiss until I was almost seventeen.  And that innocent peck stirred up a whole myriad of confusion.  Don’t get me wrong.  I had crushes.  Boys I thought were cute that gave me butterflies in my stomach.  I even went as far to tell my best guy friend’s mother in third grade that I was going to marry her son.  But instead I married my high school sweetheart.  He was the one that changed everything.  I went from being shy and backward to just the opposite.  I aggressively pursued him.  It was like I knew he was just the right one and I couldn’t let him get away.  Of course, everyone thought we were crazy; way too young to be getting married.  We didn’t wait long to start our family.  We have two beautiful daughters, now thirteen  and ten.  We’ve been married fifteen years.  Wow.  Fifteen years.  I think back to when I was fifteen, just two years older than my eldest daughter, and it feels like an eternity. 

Being married is wonderfully worthwhile, but it doesn’t mean it’s always easy breezy.  I think you have to love yourself, love your spouse, and love your marriage and the life you build together.  Things change as time passes.  It is inevitable.  I look at myself in the mirror sometimes and find it hard to recognize the person I see.  My features are softer and my figure curvier, but I consider myself one of the lucky ones for having a husband who has grown with me and appreciates me exactly the way I am.  He laughs as I examine the gray starting to show in my hair because he is salt and pepper too.  We’ve shared sleepless nights worrying together, so we’ve earned them like a badge of honor.  The intricate roadmap on my stomach from pregnancy is never seen as anything other than the miracle of creating our family.  We accept each other’s imperfections and try not to sweat the small stuff.  We embrace our differences and try to laugh together as much as possible because it’s not all about flowers and romance.  It’s about not forgetting to pick up something from the store on your way home, taking turns rocking your sick child, and taking out the trash without being told five hundred times.  Living the fairy tale doesn’t mean that every day realities disappear.  It’s a precarious balance.   

I’ve been sentimental the last few weeks.  I’m so blessed to have found the right life partner.  My wish would be that everyone has an opportunity to find a special someone to walk through this journey that we call life.

 
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Posted by on January 21, 2014 in Uncategorized

 

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A new blank page…

Here we are.  The first day of a new year.  It’s like a blank page staring at you, an untold story simply waiting for someone to put pen to paper.  Oh the possibilities!!  So far, there have been no mistakes, no regrets.  You haven’t stumbled or faltered.  It’s better than waking up to a new fallen snow before it’s been disturbed.  It’s pristine and flawless.  Take a deep breath and savor the moment.  Now is the time to ponder how you want the story to progress.  Where do you go from here?  No need for brash decisions.  Today is the day for endless possibilities;  process them, believe in them.  Save worry and regret for tomorrow.  Allow yourself one day to be open to the hope of getting it right.  We all deserve one day!   

 
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Posted by on January 1, 2014 in Uncategorized

 

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Aside

For anyone interested in reading my book, for a limited time the Kindle version is on discount for 99 cents.  It would be a great time to check it out!!  Especially if you have it on your book shelf to read.  Download it now and read it when you have a chance.

http://www.amazon.com/Wings-Hope-B-Pethtel-ebook/dp/B00D4GD8EW/ref=sr_1_3_bnp_1_kin?ie=UTF8&qid=1388333051&sr=8-3&keywords=wings+of+hope

A great opportunity…

 
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Posted by on December 29, 2013 in Uncategorized

 

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The best gift ever….

I must admit that I have been in a very depressed state the last month or so after I dropped my computer and lost so many memories.  No just photos, videos, and music.  I also lost all of my 2013 work documents and all of my progress on the second book I was writing.  I’ve really been beating myself up.  If I hadn’t let it slip off of the counter, if I had been more responsible, more diligent.  If only I had backed up my documents. 

The what if’s are endless.  I just kind of gave up and resigned myself to the fact that maybe bad things happen for a reason and I should just give in and give up.  All of this negative mojo made it very difficult to get in the holiday spirit.  But I received one of the most thoughtful gifts for Christmas.  While I have been moping around, my family snuck and had my computer fixed.  All of my documents are still gone, but the unwavering faith my family has in me is quite humbling.  They don’t want me to give up, they want me to keep writing.  Their love and support was enough to make me shape up and snap out of my doom and gloom mentality. 

So, I already know what my New Year’s resolution will be…to keep working and do everything in my power not to let them down.  Oh, and maybe not drop my computer again, like ever. 

 
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Posted by on December 28, 2013 in Uncategorized

 

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Look at the bright side…

Well, I haven’t posted anything for a while now.  I’ve been rather depressed.  There was an accident with my laptop; it slid off of the counter top while it was on.  In case you didn’t know…this is a really bad thing.  No harder than it had hit the floor, it really surprised me when I picked it up and it had a blue screen.  After I recovered from my momentary shock and swallowed the huge lump that had formed in my throat and threatened to suffocate me.  I proceeded to restart the computer.  It was running and my dread started to fade, but that faint feeling of hope was short lived.  It would only come up to the start menu.  It had two options to restart normally or manually.  I tried both options, but neither produced the desired outcome of seeing my homepage.

I decided to have someone look at it.  It took him about an hour.  He called with bad news.  Too many components had been damaged to retrieve any information, but he could salvage the computer; in his opinion it was worth fixing because of the kind of computer it was.  I told him that if the information couldn’t be retrieved that I wasn’t really in a hurry to fix it.  In the back of my mind I’m thinking..he only had it an hour.  How could he possibly come to this conclusion?  But he didn’t charge me for bad news. So I went for a second opinion.  Unfortunately, they came to the same conclusion, charged me forty bucks and lost my power chord. 

I’m still shocked, hurt, sad, but mostly furious at myself.  Of course I didn’t have an external hard drive that I had everything saved on.  That would have been too easy.  Every time I went to get one I would ask myself ‘What are the odds something will happen?’  Well, now I know.  A hard lesson learned.

Not only was my second novel on the computer, but a third I had started.  Worse yet, I lost all of my accounting information for the small business I co-own with my husband.  But the one thing that breaks my heart above all else is the countless pictures of my two beautiful daughters that can never be replaced. 

I’m a look at the bright side kind of person.  So, I’m trying to figure that out.

 
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Posted by on November 13, 2013 in Uncategorized

 

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